so its sunday morning, sunny as I dont know what. I want to go to the beach so badly it isn't even funny. Actually more than that I want this week to go by so freakin' fast so I can go to chucktown for my birthday! Peace!

I feel tired and overwhelmed. Every emotion in my body seems to be taking over. I am mad at my mom. Yet I blame her for nothing and forgive her for everything. She has done the best she could and now she can't do anymore.I am simply pissed off at my dad...who in my eyes isn;t a dad at all but sperm donor with no name or face. He has made my life an uproar. I had my life planned out. he left me in the dust. Whcih brings us to my next emotion. Trust no one. depend on NO ONE. Because if you expect someone to pick you up when you fall you will simply be let down by their apathy. So this is me throwing my hands up and taking a break. I think I deserve a break. dont you?